nye soon.

Currently Listening To: I Will Play My Game Beneath the Spin Light // Brand New

'... we're quiet on the ride, we're all just waiting to get home...'

This year has amounted to nothing. I drifted away from anyone I wanted to keep near. I didn't get my tattoo (although that WILL happen early next year). I'm losing a friend to another country. I'm missing the one person I ALWAYS want to talk to.

I hate everyone mostly. I don't have my license to get away from here every so often.

I create awkward moments and leave them nowadays, not enjoying them as much as I used to.

Not enjoying ANYTHING as much as I used to. My life, currently, at the end of this year... well it is lackluster.

So Merry New Year's Eve. If you want more of my 'cheery' mood, I'll be working...

Collect calls to home to tell them that I realise that everyone who lives will someday die and die alone.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

wish i had a random ladder in my room.

Currently Listening To: iPod on shuffle.

Because some nights, you just want to sit in your room, with all your windows open so it's cold, wearing a thin shirt so you feel the breeze. Some nights you just want to sit on your bed, drawing new images for your walls.

Tonight is one of those nights.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

i just wanna believe in us.

Currently Listening To: Okay, I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't // Brand New.

I am heaven sent. Don't you dare forget. I am all you've ever wanted, what all the other boys all promised. Sorry I told, I just needed you to know. I think in decimals and dollars. I am the cause to all your problems. Shelter from cold. We are never alone. Coordinate brain and mouth, then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out. I wish I knew. I hope this song starts a craze, the kind of song that ignites the airwaves. The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are with whoever they're there with. This is war. Every line is about who I don't wanna write about anymore. I hope you come down with something they can't diagnose, don't have the cure for. Holding onto your grudge. Oh, it's so hard to have someone to love. And keeping quiet is hard because you can't keep a secret if it never was a secret to start. At least pretend you didn't want to get caught.

We're concentrated on falling apart. We were contenders, now throwing the fights. I just want to believe, I just want to believe in us. Oh, we're so c-c-c-c-c-controversial. We are, I am, entirely smooth. We admit to the truth: we are, I am, the best at what we do. And these are the words you wish you wrote down; this is the way you wish your voice sounds: Handsome and smart. Oh, my tongue's the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart. And it's all from watching TV and from speeding up my breathing. Wouldn't stop if I could. Oh, it hurts to be this good. You're holding onto your grudge. Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love. Oh, so let it go.

We're concentrated on falling apart. We were contenders, now throwing the fights. I just want to believe, I just want to believe in us. This is the grace only we can bestow. This is the price you pay for a loss of control. This is the break in the bend. This is the closest of calls. This is the reason you're alone. This is the rise and the fall.

This song basically sums up how I feel right now.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

Oh. Yes, Creed Time. (:

Currently Listening To: Assassin's Creed.

"Do you ever look at the grave and think 'This is the most significant thing I'll ever do?'"

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

i do not GUSH around him, goshhhhhhhh.

Currently Listening To: Notes in Constellations // Chiodos.

'...Can I keep tonight? And we dance around just like constellations, you keep my body warm...'

Right now, it's a bit like 'FUCK YOU, WORK!'

I see why they quit. I'm starting to hate on them too. I need Saturday off.

Need to change my availability too, and it's like. YOU HIRED A UNI STUDENT ! YOU'RE GONNA HAVE DAYS WHERE I JUST CANNOT BE THERE !

And, I wish my brother would get some organising skills. If he had some, we'd know who was gonna be there and I would have had sufficient time to organise someone to cover my shift.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

its because i have an addictive personality

Currently Listening To: Live It, Love It, Lust It // Emarosa.

I wish I could agree that there is no weakness in forgiveness. Can we just agree that it is conditional?

Yes.

So I never knew I could feel like this again. And it is so stupid and childish, and there is no progress and I'm annoyed at how slow it all goes and how long it all takes and how much energy I waste on such things. BUT I CAN'T HELP BUT WANT TO FEEL THIS.

I want it. But it's frustrating.

---

Wish you were here. Wish you were here. Wish you were here. Lather, Rinse, Repeat.

Wish I could talk to you again. Wish you even cared. I miss everything. You're busy, I'm busy and we're totally different people. Indifferent people.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISTER IERO SIR !

Currently Listening To: Cra Pandemic // The Color of Violence
The intro.

SO IT'S MY DAY, RIGHT? HALLOWEEN. THE BEST DAY IN THE UNIVERSE. ITS THE DAY I REALISE THE WORLD IS AWESOME AND NEEDS TO NOT BE CHANGED AT ALL FOR THE BRIEF 24 HOURS IT LASTS.
SO WHY DOESN'T IT FEEL GREAT LIKE USUAL THIS YEAR?

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

little bit of bsg for you all... (:

Currently Listening To: Cry Me A River // Jonny Craig

It's a cover and his voice is awesome, the lyrics aren't important to me at the moment.

HERE is the link, because you can

hardly appreciate it's brilliance in 400px

Just thought this was a little bit nifty-pants. Thought I'd pop it on here for all the Battlestar Galactica fans.

Oh who am I kidding? We all know I'm the only BSG fan here for miles...

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

bit bored aye?

Currently Listening To: Shuffle shiet.

Type the first word into iTunes and write the first result...

Happy: Only Happy When It Rains // Garbage
Love: Love Song // Anberlin
Hate: There's a Fine Line Between Love and Hate // Blessthefall
Light: Burn Out Brighter (Northern Lights) // Anberlin
Dark: MY DARKEST HOUR // SCARY KIDS SCARING KIDS ♥ ♥ ♥
Good: Feel Good Drag // Anberlin
Bad: Guys Like You Make Us Look Bad // Blessthefall
Smile: Returning the Smile You Have Had from the Start // Emery
Cry: Cry Me A River // Jonny Craig ♥ ♥ ♥
Girl: Girl's Not Grey // AFI ( LOL HOW TRAGIC)
Boy: Coin-Operated Boy // The Dresden Dolls
Sad: Sad Statue // System of a Down
Lost: We Swam from Albatross, The Day We Lost Kailey Cost // Chiodos

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

#want

Currently Listening To: She Makes Dirty Words Sound Pretty // Pierce the Veil ft. Jonny Craig

'...and if you call me at all, don't tell me that i'm ordinary...'



Would go gay for...

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

forsythe pendleton jones the third.

Currently Listening To: I'd Rather Die Than Be Famous // Pierce the Veil

'...you love money and the sex in your veins. you're so pretty when you dress for the grave...'

HERO.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

wastey wastey whiskeyhands...

Currently Listening To: $ex, Drugs & Whiskeyhands // MikeyWhiskeyhands ft. Dr. Craig & The Architechh
'...fucking own this city, i learned at a young age, get money get paid. let's get drunk tonight...'

FUCK YOUR BOAT, BITCH. I'M ON A YACHT.

Mike's side project makes me lol hardcore. And if you just chuck Jonny Craig into anything, he'll sound fucking awesome at all times.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

can i even complicate your breathing?

Currently Listening To: Yeah Boy and Doll Face // Pierce the Veil

'...diamond gold ring customized to cut your circulation...'

Dear ad above,

You are so awesome.

Dear dipshiet,

Hope you had fun.

Dear dickface,

Why? Did you have to? I was in my pretend world of awesomeness...

*sigh*

Dear PTV SHIRTS,

HURRY THE FUCK UP. I WANT YOU ON ME RIGHT NOW!

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

evolutionary psychology has hilarious conclusions.

Currently Listening To: Love Is A Cat From Hell ft. Vic Fuentes // Chiodos
'...what goes around comes back around. it's coming around for you...'
I was kind of scared first listening to new Chiodos, but they exceeded expectations.

It looks so much like love. It looks so much like love. It looks so much like LOVE.

From a distance.

When you close one eye.

And then the other.

And then imagine that it is love.

It looks so much like Love.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

don't start, don't start shaking again.

Currently Listening To: Hills Like White Elephants // I & G
'...she can make the salt taste like sugar on her hands but if love is a way out then please let me in...

These are the hearts of lonely people ripped in front of us.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

oh, by the way i got my Docs today, they're beautiful.

Currently Listening To: Nothing actually.

You don't suppose the Make a Wish Foundation would notice that I gave myself cancer, do you? I mean, there's always a chance I could live... And that's a big enough reason for me.

If I could just hang with these boys.
Wish I was in Melbourne when they were. That would have been sick. Plus, I'd get to see Harriet.

Win win, yippity ki yay, motherfucker.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

you are the shiettest person...

Currently Listening To: Hellcats

I'm sorry. But how dare you even CONSIDER yourself an acquaintance, let alone a best friend. You can't bring up all those problems that need to be addressed and then just hang her out to dry. You are meant to do what I did, endure what I endured, listening to your best friend pour out her broken heart over the phone and realising there is nothing you can do to help but still wanting to anyway. When you feel that kind of pain of being helpless, then you can call yourself a best friend. So fuck off and stop torturing her, because you have no idea what she is sacrificing to act like she's happy and ignorant.

Now I am sick of wasting my time on you.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

through the trees i'll blow.

Currently Listening To: Sadness and sleepless nights.

Whatever. I don't want to be a part of this if you don't. Make up your mind quicker. Don't make me choose, because I'm too indecisive and involved to choose for myself.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

moshing to ptv > studying for stats midterm

Currently Listening To: Stay Away From My Friends // Pierce the Veil ♥;

'...i'll count back from ten and you can listen to glass hearts shattering...'

I'm so fucking masochistic. I know that they're probably already playing right now and I'll never make it in time and I can't go even if I leave now because I have no transport and Stats won't learn itself....

BUT there is this part of me that won't seem to stop torturing me. Can't stop listening to them, can't stop thinking about how they sound live, can't shake the massive impossibility that they could somehow bump into me in the city randomly, can't stop being a fucking fangrrl.

Thought those days were waaaaaay gone. But I guess not.

Maybe I'm just latching onto SOMETHING because the something I rather have is slipping away from me and the other thing I want is not going to be there for much longer.

Good thing short.fast.loud is going to be playing an interview with Vic tonight so at least I can hear him SOMEHOW... Thank God for Triple J...

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

Spartacus is quite gory, its awesome.

Currently Listening To: Ride the Wings of Pestilence // From First To Last

'...dear diary, my teen angst bullshiet has a body count...'

I'll hide you in my walls. Your body will never be found. I'll wear your skin as a suit. Pretend to be you; your friends will like you more than they used to.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

we are not groupies ! we are band-aids.

Currently Listening To: Almost Famous

Hold me closer Tiny Dancer. Count the headlights on the highway. Lay me down in sheets of linen.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

fire tornados look pretty cool

Currently Listening To: Dog barking, Emos talking.

I wish the Earth would open up it's greedy, mean soul and swallow me whole. So I never have to see anyone ever again.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

dear blessthefall,

Currently Listening To: What's Left of Me // blessthefall
*tehe* Beau screaming.

blessthefall,

The demo for 'To Hell and Back' sounds better than the re-recorded album version. But both are lovely.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

need to stop listening to piercetheveil

Currently Listening To: It's really sad that they only thing I've listened to in the last three weeks is Pierce the Veil, The Vaine and Mysery Jets. So I'm just not gonna say what I'm listening to because Grace will give me that disapproving look because I'm obsessing again.

o1./I'm just so sick of all this bullshiet. So do what you like. I've given up.

o2./ Andre's dinner thing last night was LOL-worthy. You UWS people are fucking crazy.

o3./ JILLY! WHY? :{( *sad moustache face*

o4./ SOMEONE come to PTV with me please! Preferrably someone who can get me to Marrickville.

o5./ IF THIS IS IT, DON'T BOTHER COS THIS LOVE IS A LIE.

o6./ How come I can't find the I&G album anywhere?

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

need to borrow/steal/make this.

Currently Listening To: GOOD NEWS WEEK.

I want.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

such a fucking disappointment.

Currently Listening To: The Longest Yard.

So I watched American Psycho tonight. I have to say... I thought it would be a lot more gory? Maybe if it was made in 2010 it would be A LOT worse. But it wasn't horrible or anything. For the people who haven't read the book, its fine. It's like the Harry Potter deal.

The book is heaps more messed up. I love you, Bret Easton Ellis. I knew you were in Australia before, I just hate that I didn't have the money to buy a ticket. So very sad.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

i don't need help.

Currently Listening To: Kissing in Cars //Pierce the Veil.

'...the future's just a few heartbeats away from disaster...' (The song is meant to be about love, but the way I feel right now, I shall pick every bone out of context and manipulate the world as I see fit).

I think I am having problems. I think I have a problem that I cannot deal with alone. I think I need help.

But I will never ask for it.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

long day, too much thinking, regaining sanity = bad.

Currently Listening To: The wind blowing through the trees in the Secret Garden.

There was some sort of music in the Courtyard and religious stuff going on today. And then I realised... I'm losing my faith.

My faith in humanity. My faith in the dependability of people, reliability of friends... I'm losing what I fought so hard to keep and maybe it is at that point where I don't think I can get it back so I just let it slip away... But I don't want it to. And I am trying to make an effort still. Don't make it so hard on me right now. I don't think I could handle that at the moment.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

caprica.

Currently Listening To: LIE TO ME.

Shame she's a Cylon.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

"you're inhuman".

Currently Listening To: 300

I'm so sick of everything looking perfect and not feeling perfect. So fuck you if I'm just one big intrusion in your life. I apologise for everything I've ever done, good, bad or other. Ignore all the things I've influenced in your life. The list of things important to you is obviously too short for name as long as mine.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

have i forgotten myself?

Currently Listening To: GOOD NEWS WEEK.

Was talking to Jilly tonight on the phone and we were talking about how much Uni has changed so many people. Us included. People are falling apart, moving away, drifting away...

Things I've wanted to do forever are being done by other people without a moment of thought. I'm still who I think I am, I'm just more self aware. So why am I missing everything about Year 11 and 12?

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

sombre, then happy, then mildly confused/amused.

Currently Listening To: Okay, I Believe You But My Tommy Gun Don't // Brand New

'...ask me what its like to have myself so figured out. Wish i knew...'

So you're making me feel shiet again. Can you act like a friend for once? I'm busy too you know, but I'm making the effort, or trying at least. And you're stonewalling me. That was totally a chance for you to REPLY for once. You'll talk to everyone else BUT me. What am I to you? Do I mean anything anymore? Just let me know now so if I don't mean anything, we can go back to our old ways where we didn't feel bad for ignoring each other politely. Some friend...

Now to funnier things: HARRIET IS IN SYDNEY! YES!

Also, I had my Anthropology tute today and... well when my tutor walked in, I was like... 'Shiet. The awesomely fitting shirt, the neat trousers with appropriate coloured socks, the golf hat, the glasses, the Generation-X-trying-to-fit-into-Gen-Y swagger in his walk, the slight eccentricity...THIS IS THE TUTOR FROM EVERY SHIETTY COLLEGE MOVIE. THE ONE THAT CONDUCTS SECRET AFFAIRS WITH THREE STUDENTS ALL AT ONCE. OMG MY TUTOR IS HANK MOODY! (Obviously not treally David Duchovny you idiots.)

That's basically how my mind works... But I wouldn't be surprised if he was boning a student somewhere.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

selfish machines.

Currently Listening To: newalbumnewalbumnewalbum.

As you can obviously tell, Dyanne went to JBHIFI and spent all her money. Typical. I've wanted this for a while now, but stupid money-less life prohibited that. Thank God for part time jobs. Next on the buying list? DOCTER MOTHERFUCKING MARTENS.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

fleeting sense of elation.

Currently Listening To: I'm still listening to Pierce the Veil so shut up.
'...all the stars on your ceiling they glow but not for you...'

You make me feel like this right now. I really appreciate you showing me something I thought I had lost long ago.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

one of those days.

Currently Listening To: The Sky Under the Sea // Pierce the Veil

'... oh my god, you'll never be as beautiful without me. so do that dance in the dark, sharpen your teeth and bite as hard as you want...'


It just happened to turn out as One Of Those Days. The kind where you realise you haven't talked to your best friend in over a month. The kind where you write down all the lyrics to a song just to make sure you still remember them, even though you mouthed every word on the bus to Uni. The kind where you wrote those lyrics when you should have been listening to your Second Year Statistics lecture instead. And you ended up writing those lyrics OVER the three lines of actual Statistics lecture notes that you wrote. The days where you make empty promises to yourself. Where you wait for something and it doesn't ever happen.

The kind where you only find yourself confirming your prior thoughts of 'THE FASTEST WAY TO LOSE SOMETHING IS TO WANT IT TOO BAD'. To hate your admitting defeat so easily, even to yourself.

The days where you cling to the next thing you can obsess peacefully about, without broken hearts and disappointment and failed subjects and frustration and investing time in everything only to have it deliver you NOTHING.
The kind of days where you miss the first half of NCIS.

The type of days I really appreciate. Sounds like I'm whiny, but I'm glad that I can feel this. Because I've been so worried that maybe I've turned into an Ellis character. I still think I am much too young to want to, yearn to, need to be that jaded in order to carry out my superficial life. So I'm mucho glad.

But yer, I still miss my best friend. :( I'm lacking in meaningful discussion about button eyes and tear DUCKS.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

so it's orange monday again?

Currently Listening To: Chemical Kids and Mechanical Brides // Pierce the Veil
'...and if there's a God then I'm letting Him go all for you...'



Three awkward hugs later, and I'm still sitting here, listening to Pierce the Veil repeatedly. I am beginning to wonder if maybe I'm growing attached to PTV or just this song.

Also, probably should not receive hugs from brother's friends covered in orange juice from own stupidity.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

harmonising in the morning.

Currently Listening To: Pierce the Veil // Chemical Kids and Mechanical Brides.

'... smile for me, oh we're in slow motion when you smile for me...'

- dyanne: i know right. i would sleep with that voice

lorraine: LOLLOl, not him?

- dyanne: LOL no

lololol

i'd marry him if he would sing to me every morning

lorraine. says: man id marry anyman

with a voice like sex

who promised to sing to me every morning

followed by the sex

im just saying

- dyanne: then in that case

i would jump jonny

just for the morning after

when he'd sing to me

and craigery owens

and vic fuentes

FUCK

i'll have a mad foursome with them and they can harmonise in the morning.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

i like entertaining comments on youtube.

Currently Listening To: Asking Alexandria // The Final Episode (Lets Change The Channel)
'...just stand up and scream, the tainted clock is counting down...'

LOL

I just read a fucking hilarious comment on the Asking Alexandria video for The Final Episode.

'Man this shit is so sick, this video is so well done, it makes me want to get up and kick a hole in someone's throat'

Gotta love comments like that, lol.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

are you listening?

Currently Listening To: Walls // Emery

Forget the words of the song for a moment. Just listen to the first thirty seconds of the song. Just listen to it. Right now. That guitar... OMFG. That small section of guitar right there.

It makes me want to cry and smile and laugh and light fireworks and fall in love all at the same.

I replay it way too many times and I will always smile when I hear it; in a bus, train, walking home, anywhere.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

the sorrows of young werther.

Currently Listening To: Ocean's Twelve.

I wish I had this cover of the book instead of the Penguin Classic cover. It looks so... lusty. Makes me want to read it with my own century's context instead of the context it was created in. But it was so hard to find it in the first place anyway. Ah well.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

hey johnny ramone, cool grave you got there.

Currently Listening To: Some crappy movie on TV.



- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

this is the low point of my life.

Currently Listening To: The Simpsons.

Can we get a FUCK YES?

No, we can't.

Because as pretty as this boy is, HE IS HALF INDIAN. HALF INDIAN. INDIAN.

HALF! This makes me feel so dirrrrtty.

But if only you'd see him in Caprica. He's only in one episode cos he does suicide bomb a MagLev, but seriously... SO PRETTY. BUT SO HALF INDIAN at the same time.

Indians.........aggghhhr. Yes yes, I know I am one, but qwertyuiop!

Maybe I should watch that shietty child show he's in. Or go to Canada and egg his house.

Wonder at his prettiness or mock his culture? I CAN'T DECIDE!

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

gonna take her for a ride on a big jet plane.

Currently Listening To: Big Jet Plane // Angus & Julia Stone.

'...she said "hello mister. pleased to meet you". i wanna hold her, i wanna kiss her. she smelled of daisies, she drives me crazy...'

This song won't leave my head. I don't charge my iPod for days seeing as I'm on holidays and all the quieter/acoustic stuff gets it chance to invade instead of being pushed out by screamo shiet. Hahaha.
I really need an awesome camera so I can do this light painting stuff with it.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

the butterfly effect.

Currently Listening To: The Difference Between Medicine and Poison is in the Dose // Circa Survive.

'...accomplishments are transient, they pulled me in unremittingly. i feel relieved to let repetition save me...'


Weeds Season 6...FINALLY. Can you envision a hotter drug dealer? Probably not ever.

I watched the Butterfly Effect today. Man, thats a bit of a mind fuck. All that hemorrhaging should have killed him... so whatever. But yer, its not all that bad, actually. Quite sad for him in the end, really. But the butterfly effect is probably my favourite part of Chaos Theory, and all the psychological implications was like a large dose of happy drugs to my brain.

Last night I was trying to remember a book or something that I really wanted to read. It was really old too... like 1800's or something. Shiet. I really gotta remember it. OH SCHNAPP. My brain just did something I thank it for. I deduced what that book was. Of course, its linked to Psychology. I should write it down before I forget it.

'The Sorrows of Young Werther' by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe.

I hope Borders has it. Because its what I shall be spending my second paycheck on. First goes to that lovely character Woody. I don't care how old I am, I want a toy just like Andy from Toy Story ! Gotta have something to remind me of my childish ways.



- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

I watched Sleepy Hollow today.

Currently Listening To: My head divulging thoughts I shouldn't ever write down for the public eye to see.... So I blog them.

I think this ad is awesome. Hahaha. But I wouldn't use it to kill me... Obviously in the long run it might, but more for the 'cure' for reality. BUT euthanasia aside....

I realised that I am the happiest when I'm writing. Not the kind of writing where I plead insanity on my blog (although this is alright too). But I mean the writing of fiction...namely FANfiction. I miss it. I miss the stories I remember reading until 4am on the holidays and hated when I would go to search for them and the best ones are all deleted or untraceable somehow. So I think I might just throw myself off my metaphorical Hudson River and kill this person who lost her faith in fiction since the HSC took over her life and reinvest in a fiction filled world.

BUT FIRST!.... The Simpsons and stuffing my face. My fiction filled life will have to start after dinner (:

Hooray for the fatty.

Also. In the Land of Women is a shiet movie. Not really. Its pretty crap but only because Kristen Stewart is in it , hahaha.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

dude.... pfft, lol.

Currently Listening To: H.E Double Hockey Sticks. - movie.


Olympus Trip 35 , Apples & and too much sun = uhm,. Yeaaaah. Not sane times.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

hide and seek

Currently Listening To: South Park on the television.

One, Two, Three....

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

just got back from melbourne.

Currently Listening To: The wonderful world of television.

Cranberry, Raspberry & Strawberry tea.♥;

Probably carcinogenic in large doses, but you try having a sip and not wanting to finish ten cups more. Only difference between you and me is that... I'm just stupid enough to actually have those ten additional cups.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

scrabble on the brain.

Currently Listening To: TV.

So I've been brainwashed. Not really. But I can't get scrabble letters out of my head and I think I'm in love with the concept. So these scrabble cushions have given me the idea of making my own scrabble cushions, custom styleZ.

So they are haunting me and won't leave my mind unless I do.

But it looks like fun anyway. I'll start small... then make some cushions for my bed or something.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

Try to do something nice and it kicks you in the face.

Currently Listening To: NCIS, ohchyea.

Okay, so here comes some more incessant ranting... ready? I don't give a shiet if you are or not. Fuck you and your perfect life (YES MOFO. In this ranting scenario you have no problems so that MY problem seems so much BIGGER than your shiet, okay? GOOD).

Okay, Dear YOU. (Yes its another letter, get the fuck over it or gtfo);

So where do you get off doing this shiet, aye? Can you not see that I am not interested in that? Trying to be a friend and you're being a complete douchebag. I'm starting to dislike you. And not a crappy Hollywood style dislike where I think you're okay, then you do something asshole-y and then in the end of the movie, we're friends again.
NO. Not that kind of dislike.

BUT I REALLY WISH IT WAS.
Becase if you're going to be a complete douche all the fucking time (as much as I love that part of your personality), and if you're definitely going to be an ass TO ME, then I can't put myself into a another destructive relationship like that.

Jesus Christ, do you have God Complex or what? Learn how to unmess your receptors for "signals" because I'm not giving you any. I hope you trip over in front of me at Uni or something.
In fact, wait for Uni to start. I'll be the fucking ICE QUEEN. Beware the fucking FREEZE that is my cold shoulder. Sure I'll say hi, but just wait for how shiet the rest of the conversation is.

AHH FUCK YOU. SO Very Much. I really don't want to have you in my mind all the time okay!? You're so frustrating because you are everything I imagined you to be and I'm stuck being this lame piece of shiet you feel you HAVE to (exhaustingly) talk to like you're only being nice to not seem like a complete asshole. I'm fine with being that lame piece of shiet because there are people who love me the way I fucking AM.

UGH. I guess this could have been a shorter letter if I just wrote the following sentence, but I don't think you would have grasped the craphole that you have put my mind into. So without further ado, the only thing I wish I could have summed up without the added information:

CAN YOU LEARN TO GET OVER YOURSELF AND TREAT ME LIKE A HUMAN BEING WHO IS ONLY LOOKING FOR A FRIEND, NOT LIKE A FACEBOOK STALKING LEPER?

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

Pumpkin.

Currently Listening To: GOOD NEWS WEEK.

- dyanne. ♠

'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

AMERICAN SKINS? REALLY?

Currently Listening To: LIKE I DO// EOTC.

'...I'VE BEEN GETTING HIGH. AND SHE BREATHES JUST LIKE I DO...'

KEEP SKINS BRITISH.

FUCK YOU AMERICA. DON’T RUIN THIS FOR US. AS IF THE SHOW COULD BE ANY BETTER IF REMADE BY YOU. WE DON’T WANT THIS SHIET. WE DON’T WANT YOUR ANNOYING AMERICAN TEENAGERS.

AND HOW DARE YOU SWITCH MAXXIE’S CARBON COPY CHARACTER TO A LESBIAN. STOP EXPLOITING THE LONELY HORNY MALE DEMOGRAPHIC JUST SO YOUR FUCKED UP RATING SYSTEMS CAN SOAR. IF YOU SWITCH MAXXIE’S CHARACTER TO A LESBIAN, THEN THE SOLE REASON YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE RATINGS IS BECAUSE THOSE LONELY MEN ARE GOING TO SIT IN FRONT OF THEIR TV SCREENS AND ILLEGAL DOWNLOADS, HOPING THEY GET THEIR HOURS WORTH OF MA15+ SOFTCORE PORN.

WHY DON’T YOU COME UP WITH SOMETHING ORIGINAL FOR ONCE, YER?

MAYBE IF YOU STOPPED CANCELLING JOSS WHEDON’S SHIET, HE’LL WRITE YOU SOMETHING THAT WILL WIN YOU THE MARKET AGAIN SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO RESORT TO STEALING UK’S BRILLIANCE.

YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES.


You've been lovely. I'm here all week.

- dyanne. ♠

'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

exam times. sorry.

Currently Listening To: Be My Escape // Relient K

'...i'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake...'

- dyanne. ♠

'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

eotcdxvi is getting me through this.

Currently Listening To: Spinal Cords // EOTC
'...more than friends, but less than lovers...'

Spinal Cord, collapsible.
You'll fit right into your own shirt pocket.
I'll use my hands to climb out of hell.

This hell.
This anguish.
This pain.

This Is Shiet.
Another one gone and now my parents are orphans, I guess.
And at a major stressful time.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

i'm your biggest fan....

Currently Listening To: WOW.

The cat lady from the Simpsons is called Eleanor Abernathy.

Oh also, check this shiet out. Its really good.




- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

may the fourth be with you.

Currently Listening To: Starwars marathon

HEY AMERICAN HIGHSCHOOL OR VARSITY TEAM.
GIVE ME YOUR LETTERMAN JACKET PEASE?
HOPEFULLY IN GREEN, RED OR BLUE. SMALL SIZE THANKS.
AND LIKE IF THERE IS A 'D' AS THE LETTER, THEN THE BETTER, BUT IM NOT TOO FUSSED.
THANKING YOU.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

OMG.asdfghjkl 4 days til american psycho.

Currently Listening To: "Big fuck off scorpion thing" LOLOL @ GNW

Stop frustrating me right now. Its all bullshiet anyway. I know its not something to stress over but its just stupid if we don't know how we're getting home after. Stop being a dick.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

American fucking Psycho.

Currently Listening To: The Great American T-Shirt Racket // EOTC
'...now i have a t-shirt to go with my scars...'



Less than 2 weeks to go. And I'll get the book I have been craving for years. I want I want, I need I need. I'm sorry Grumley, I don't care if this book scared or scarred you. Ellis is my life, my love. I need to experience the truly fucked up book that made my literary hero become a controversial household name.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

sorry i abandoned you for so long.

Currently Listening To: The sounds of my silent desperation.



Street art, yes please.

Also, please. Do not be me you are referring to. I am nothing like that person you mentioned there. Sure in my head I may be frustrated with all the things I want to say to you, but you're not going to get anything but the laidback version. So you don't even know me. Uni is meant to be awesome. You're making it awesome, but at the same time, you're making everything so shiet.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

the same thing we do every night, pinky.

Currently Listening To: Chiodos playing live with their new singer (is youtube)

Omg. I try not to go as low as this usually. I mean, Blessthefall was like really lucky to get Beau cos FUCK Beau-tie is really good. But Omg? Brandon Bolmer... I mean he's okay considering the whiny lovelyness that was Craig Owens that Bolmer has to fill in for...
Someone commented 'RIP CHIODOS'.
I wonder if thats how its gonna be. Guess I'll have to wait for some new shiet thats properly recorded instead of live shows to determine.
I'm finding it hard to think of reasons to still love Chiodos. They are great but I always thought Craig's voice just suited it. I even checked out some of Bolmer's old band's stuff and well.
Let's just say, I pray for Chiodos. I really hope they blow my expectations out of the water. I really do. Really.
I may have been Craig bias cos I love him and when things like this happen I really just want to hate the new lead singer or whoever, but in this case...well lets stick with the hoping it all works out and they still sound awesome. I wanted to LOATHE Beau when he took over as lead for Blessthefall, but his voice is amazing and they are still making music that I love. Not saying that Chiodos can't make music I love without Craig, but it just remains to be seen so far.

And oh, may I just add. I'm so proud of Beau for learning how to scream just for BTF. <3. Just hope he does it right all the time so he doesn't ruin those lovely vocal chords of his. (:

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

gahrrr.

Currently Listening To: WATCHING PHX vs DENVER.

I wish they would put NHL on ONE HD. I wanna see the Redwings.
and LOL at BULLS PWNING CELTICS today. (:
And the EPIC pt difference throughout the phx vs denver game. Steve Nash's hair still makes me laugh.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

my heart jumps everytime the phone rings.

Currently Listening To: Children of Divorce // Jonny Craig.
'...scared by thoughts...'

I hate the phone. I hate hearing it ring. I hate that it could tell me the worst news in a second. I get afraid everytime it rings. I don't want to her those words. Don't call. Don't let anyone call me now. I can't stand being here. I want to be there. With her. As she dies.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

oh this is terrible !

Currently Listening To: Losing It // Nevershoutnever !
'...i just lost it...'

Can you please be here for me. I need you right now. Where are you? I can't talk to them like I can talk to you.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

i wonder what a viola lion actually looks like.

Currently Listening To: Viola Lion // I&G
'...diamond, diamond are you all in the sky? i can't believe all of these beautiful lies...'

I don't like her, sorry. I know you do, and you enjoy her company and etc.
But I don't like her. Don't ever properly introduce me to her. That brief electronic encounter was sufficient enough, thank you. I mean, she seems nice enough maybe. But I rather not have to attach another name to my fake smile list.

I also rather not go through what Mister Ordinary is going through at the moment. I won't be put there, okay!? I'm not going there. We're not going there! Please?

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

hmphhh.

Currently Listening To: Clush // I&G
'... as we share this simple night, do you understand that i could never tell a lie...'

If only you knew how annoying it is to want you and not know a single thing about you.
I would illegally drive around your suburb even if there was the slightest chance of seeing you.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

HOW COULD YOU LEAVE?

Currently Listening To: Empty Sighs and Wine // Isles & Glaciers.
"...she said "i love you, but you're difficult". Words i've heard so many times before but those words don't mean a thing...'

Don't leave please.
Have a change of heart.
Please.
Please?
Okay... as long as you're happy?
Yes, that was a question. I get to question. I don't want to agree.

ALSO.
Mother.
I can't pray for that.
I can't pray for that.
I can't pray for that.
You can't tell your children to pray for something like that.
Selfish as it may be, I don't want her to die.
She's my grandmother, for fuck sake.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

empty sighs and wine.

Currently Listening To: Dyanne Yawning.

I would add every Malfoy on Facebook if it means that I could find you.


Happy Easter, my lovelies.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

Oh up in smoke we go.

Currently Listening To: 7am, 2 Bottles and the Wrong Road // Jonny Craig
'...out of all the safe roads promised, we return to the one with no self control...'

Go put your sorrows girl, on someone else. My bet is it's going to end with heartache.
Spread your legs one time. Spread your legs two times. We both know this is pathetic...

Jonny Craig's solo album has been helping me procrastinate like I always do. Amongst the things I do best. But can't do that as much any more. Stupid higher education.

Secondly,
I wish I could tell you this to your face. But you don't know anything about this. I am truly happy where I am at the moment in regards to us. You support me, I support you. We work this way. I missed that good feeling of being treally content with anything, but I know we are, and always should be, perfect in this way.

Thirdly,
I think I have finally wrapped that thought around my head like a hoodie on a rainy day. Thanks for trusting me enough with it. If it's any fuel for thought, I probably would not have guessed that, even with my 'psychoanalyzing' skills you claim I have, ahah.

Finally,
JONNY CRAIG, YOUR VOICE and YOUR FACE just shouldn't make sense! But I'm glad you sing that awesomely.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

guess i got some bawls after all.

Currently Listening To: my sniffling, I'm sick.

Talkedtohim
Talkedtohim
I actually conversed with him.
OMG.

Now you know what has to happen, my lovelies. If YOU see HER, you have to start a dialogue.
And if YOU see HIM you have to stop and have that lovely conversation you longed for two years ago.
I kept my end of the bargain. And I'm really glad I did.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

least he has a name now.

Currently Listening To: Tearin' Up My Heart // N*Sync
I really have no idea why the fuck I'm listening to this.

BAWLS.
Three hours, forty-five minutes, and no bawls to go say hi.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

Uni is gonna start sooo soon.

Currently Listening To: nothing. my laptop is pms-ing hardcore.



Even though my laptop basically relocated all my files, folders and documents, generally fucking up everything I've accumulated over the past few years, this photo makes me feel somewhat better about things. I've even started reading even more than I used to. And staying away from my laptop for whole nights at a time. I'm regaining my life from technology and all thanks to my whorebitch laptop.

Orientation tmrw. Gotta get up early.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'

ugh.

Currently Listening To: Watching some bullshiet on tv.



Kind of sick of Valentine's day ads that assume that all women want is for someone to buy them some shiet and say those 'three most important words'. DUDE. What if the only important words to her in her current state of mind is Career, Mortgage and Single? I will love Single's Awareness Day this year cos mine willl be full of NBA (: <3. Derrick Rose ftw.

Today was mad fun. Rooftop BBQs ftw and loved when it started to rain on us, LOL. Mei's rooftop has a pool and tennis courts and shiet. OH and LOVE her Cassie Ventura-esque hair. (: Very cool.

- dyanne. ♠
'Sorry, I don't speak Abercrombie and Fitch.'